Fairy Tales I am no princess in the tower I am no sleeping beauty I don't need a rescue I don't need a prince to be complete But i still wouldn't mind the kiss To awaken me from this slumber Of being alone but never lonely Touch is a part of the human experience Its been too long I am not Cinderella I didn't lose any glass slipper I am tough, i am strong Solid on my feet quick with my tongue I am no wilting flower cowering from the big bad man I don't need anyone to save me I am happy to be me I am no victim And i will not be ever again I don't need mario to come save me I don't need prince charming Just one real man with a kind heart and beauty inside Who creates with his hands and mind Who will play me like a guitar strumming all the write chords To make me sing gentle hands know all the right ways Shares flesh from head to toe trust in a artistic soul So expectations No promises Just us in the moment from moment by moment Come find me You want me? come find me You have to work for me I don't just give myself away I have a price above jewels I sparkle like them tho' So the finding should be easy paradise awaits in my arms Find me and i will open up my heart and you will see all my charms but, you have to be good to me treat me right Or i am gone like vapor In a hot summers night I will be unexpected I wont look like you think i would But, look beyond that To what you already know of me and come, find me I am waiting in t he garden I have made just for us two Big A candle burns next to me Candlelight is always flattering but no one is here to look upon me So, it really doesn't matter I feel like breaking out of my shell rattling my cage Do things i am forbidden regardless of price i might pay I feel ready to leave this town i have called home for so long Find bigger things Find my destiny find my bliss I feel like a big big girl in a tiny box I have big emotions and big thoughts bigger than those around here What i want most if i were to tell the truth is someone to love me hold, me kiss me and protect me i dream of a big big life with big love, big passion. big words Girl like me When i meet you I hope that i am at my best I hope i find my words Lyrical and smooth I hope you see something in me The others never did I hope that you will give me the chance To show you what i have to give I hope you will stick around long enough to get to know me I hope you wont be put off by my directness and will appreciate my honesty I am real, oh so real My flawed body My flawed skin My flawed soul and past of sin But i hope you will stick around a while See i have worth Not linger in pre-conceived notions about what a girl like me is Burning for you I burn for you, you know So much i sometimes cant take it Afraid it will consume me Quench the fire give it that which satisfies You don't have to love me Look me in the eyes make no promises you don't intend to keep You are in my mind when i go to bed at night Always there, always i burn Something about it fits The thoughts of me and you Love and war No one warned me about you No one told me I would become addicted I ache to breath you in touch you, just so taste your saltiness on my lips spend the night looking into your eyes hold you hand if you were to cry I want to listen to you tell me all you believe in Hear your thoughts on love and war I want to know what you were like as a little boy I want to share all that i am with you and have you love me anyway I want to take in all you are, flaws and all and love you unconditionally I don't care what you have done in the past I don't care where you've been I don't care who you are in life Just who you are with me Chemistry Your eyes they hold me From across the room I see you sweetly I think i love you I shyly smile you smile too We go to dance Your hand on the small of my back can you feel it. Are you getting warm we say no words but the feelings strong something palpable my heart beats fast my breathing quickens it doesn't pass Your eyes so blue Face so kind I want to kiss you I want you to be mine We just met said few words but i feel for you something warm and wet I want to be alone with you in a darkly lit room eyes of an angel lips of joy body just perfect for me anyway i want to taste your sweetness kiss your ear tickle your arm place my hand upon your knee while you whisper sweet something in my ear giving me shivers and you pull me near i want to feel your breath on my neck as your hand moves down my back I want to run away with you no looking back who is this stranger who moves me so i don't feel in danger so i wont go hands move, and lips join feeling euphoric feeling you Taking the ride has love lost left you so jaded that you fear taking a risk fear a real woman fear she could give you what you need most in your heart and body have you been burned beyond recognition by love have you lost the will to love again Wholly and fully not just half way not just pretend Does wisdom make you fear What could come is avoiding pain worth not taking the ride No risk, but no experience I feel that too My skin still burns from the last My first and last Three years gone, and it still stings sometimes There is more to a woman than body, more than a face Those things are fleeting. Youth is only temporary But, in my heart, beats a strong woman Someone who loves wholly and deeply I would never be the one to leave I would not be the one to say goodbye I want a man to protect me, take care of me Love me as i am, even my faults One that will hold me when i cry, and who can make me laugh One that burns with passion and emotion One with kind hands and honest words A man that lives in his own art Who takes nothing for granted Who can respect me Who i can respect and whom i can love unconditionally despite his flaws Someone who burns as much as i do A man who is ok with letting me to my thing and i wont mind if he does his. So long as we come back together at the end of the night A man who wont call names when we fight Anger i don't mind. I have a temper myself A man who doesn't balk at my stubbornness and opinions I wouldn't mind his either I don't need a big love, i don't need a soul mate Not right now. What i do need is faithfulness, love, comfort, care and kindness And i need passion. oh, do i need passion You don't have to be a perfect man Just be good to me. I will always be good to you, love. Just love me in the way you do be truthful, be kind I ca accept any odd thing you throw at me As long as you remember i am an odd creature too I can promise you that i will love you with no condition, be faithful, submit to your guidance, So please don't steer me wrong let you take care of me burn up the bed with abandon endless passion, and emotion A soft touch, kisses like wine A lot of respect, and always the truth My body and my heart i pledge to thee Come My love, come. Cold Comfort The comfort i get from you is cold. It has no flesh, no blood, no bone. No words meant just for me. No hand holding mine No arm around my waist No shared tears or little joke to make me smile My comfort comes from the knowledge of you And the knowledge of who am And the things between those two, that come from the same places I do not know you You do not know me We are thousands of miles a apart But knowing, someone is out there Knowing there is someone who has felt what i have Who has experienced those same scars Comforts me. You are my cold comfort when things get bad When the memories make me sad and blue Because, those things are things a proper girl doesn't talk about Those dirty things that are unspoken. They need to be given breath I hide them beneath my breast Because, no one understands them The secrets. The pain The secret aching in my heart i feel in the night And the ache below My secret desire i give no word to not for anyone's ears You expose yourself in so many ways Just put it out there for the world to see, and judge naked and unafraid Bare In my hours of memory an silence I yearn for my cold comfort and i put on a record and i go there and i am alone and i am fine The Loss I am weary of this world With its traps and snares Its liars and thieves Psychological vampires roaming these halls Seeking to suck me dry Of intellect, and wisdom, and emotion Until i am a dry dusty shell Repulsed by my body Because i am not perfect I am flawed. I have scars My body is soft and lumpy From years of self abuse A slow suicide with food Seeking my escape But i woke up from that slumber I made the change Got me a new outlook Getting me a new body But it takes time. Time i wonder if i have Will i be loved when i am done? Will i know passion for the first time? Will a beautiful man take me in his arms Will i show him all my hidden charms Will i be beautiful Will my outside finally match my insides So many questions in my mind rattle around like marbles in a jar The not knowing, is torture for me Wanting love is perfect misery Not having it is like bleeding Blood pours onto the rocks below The water crashes I look into the waves and i contemplate my existence, my value as a woman No man wants me right now I wish they did A beautiful man, with his own art His own emotion and passion in life With a kind heart and a quick wit loving hands and lusty lips A man who looks inside and sees something Something pretty and wise and serene Will it come later Or will i be alone I had a love once but he was lying to me Said he loved me when he didn't all those years wasted believing the lie Making myself sick he wanted me to die But in the now IN the now i am strong I am regaining health wisdom came long ago wise and wicked i am still, the thing that eludes me is the love of a good man Ties that bind What reason do i have to stay here? I have no ties that bind If i was a rich girl I'd be in Paris or London right now Looking at something beautiful Something bigger than myself Maybe i would find a nice man With a charming accent Who could kiss me so good I feel it down to my toes. who could make me laugh And who my secrets i could disclose I could see the worlds great artists Mingle with the locals and play Eat nice food That's bad for me Sleep until noon wear a smile, and nothing else in my hotel room There would be no reason to come back not to stay I know it is harsh, but i feel that way I have no ties that bind me And i like it that way. Since i am a poor girl I am stuck here for now But i am gonna take my art and make it somehow I am gonna find a new life a new man too One who really loved me, and makes me burn I have never had a true love Or a burning passion I want both some day I want it to last Something more than words and release Something new. Roam the world I'm so tired So worn down From always thinking My brain wont stop It just needs a little rest My body too looking at me You never would have guessed And i wish i was free To roam the world Just living to be me experience something new So many times I've seen them walking out that door No kiss goodbye Left me broken on the floor But, i know that i am at my best without them to disturb my rest And i wish i was free to roam the world just living to be me experience something new And when i'm done and seen all i want I would come home and find someone who would give me rest and a little of his love and settle down in peace and endless passion But i first want to roam the world free to be no one but me no wife, girlfriend, no ones daughter Just Heather alone in her bliss Maybe find someone to kiss When i fancy to I want to be free to roam I am so tired of just living here at home My mind needs some release My heart just needs a little peace. Happy Fool I am a happy fool sitting in the rain Oblivious to any peril I hear no thunder I see no lightening I just smile Because it is beautiful here And i am beautiful too And being wet isn't so bad Being wet feels real nice When all you feel is dry When you skin feels cracked from no use Weathered and dusty Water pours down on me Like so many tears From the weight of hard lived years So, paint me a happy fool. I will still be happier than you Runny Ink on paper Running in the rain Words i wrote you fell on deaf eyes deaf, dumb, and blind That's me deaf of heart, dumb of heart, blind of heart I give it away It comes back smashed and used I open it up and it gets spit into I hide it away and i burn ink runny heart bleeding soul fractured not fully dead, nor fully alive waiting for something, someone, to arrive Make a change Change of scenery Change of vocation Change of a life Change......Change...... Can ya spare a dime.... I need change Deep I cant touch your face, like i once touched his Him who i should never have touched You are not mine to have Not mine to share with you Not that i want you Not in any kind of intense way Any kind of deep way I offered him love, he offered me pain I gave him my innocence He made me corrupt But you would corrupt me too With your wicked wicked ways I am the sinner, you are the sin yet, sometimes i fall deep Deep inside where no one knows i hide No one knows who the girl is who dwells in the deep Deep well of something.... I can not define As anything other than me, as emotion, as passion, as love, as need Three long years Am i flesh to you yet? And flesh...... what is flesh What makes us flesh and bone and blood? breath, flesh, breathe on me I am not sure i am flesh anymore NO one has touched me for three long years Have i stopped being flesh? Touch keeps flesh nimble, wet, smooth In truth you are just a concept You are not flesh Sometimes when i am feeling the alone creeping up on me When it gets close and i can feel its breath on my neck I think of you I think of showing you my small world In its plain and simple waves I wonder if it would bore you or if you would see beauty in it The way i do. And i do not think of flesh in those times I think beyond flesh I am beyond being flesh bound in those moments I would love to show myself to you in ways i never showed him I held back parts of me, because he did not deserve them His hands bruised me and his words made me bleed for so many years He did not deserve my deepest jewels He did not deserve me Not that i am better than anyone else Because i am not, i am flawed I am human Being human means being flesh flesh is fallible What's a word flesh Its just a word It doesn't make me real Touch makes me real Makes me whole Love, makes me whole Not that i am invalid alone I am valid I just need. i want You or someone like you Some facsimile of what i perceive you to be Some kind of something that i can connect to on a deeper level than i had with him With him i was just biding my time Waiting for something better to happen to me Now i am making things happen But alone. Three long years alone Its is not what God intended he left me alone That i am thankful for I was in prison then I was more alone with him than i am with no one Years of disappointment, of pain, of loneliness In a house made for two that was no home At night i pray for you, what i want you to be like, how i want you to look The passion i want you to have The flesh i desire in you Most importantly i pray you are nothing like him Not one particle, not one cell of resemblance I sometimes wonder if i pray hard enough, if God will form you from the earth Like Adam in the garden And place your rib within me, making me your Eve If i can pray you, dream you into existence if i just try hard enough, if i just believe Art I love the way paint feel on my hands The pencil draws without thought But, in my deepest self Its my words that are my art Words inside me swell They come bursting out I want to stuff your words inside my ears I am a junkie, and words are my heroin I am an artist I didn't say i was good I paint pictures with my words I pour my heart, my soul my blood into each phrase They are all little pieces of me Some say i talk to much But, that's just me being me Words have power, have charm Words can ignite, disarm Words can hurt or sooth Emotion in the form of words is what i give to you My gift My love to you I cant sleep I lay in bed at night Just staring in the dark beneath the covers Hearing nothing but the sound of my beating heart It seems like i cant sleep without you here with me Though, you and i never were and never will be You are my cold comfort in the night A memory of something that feels so right Haunted by you like a ghost You are always there, not visible but close Close to my heart To my soul, to my mind I lie here naked and alone I live ina house, that is no home Its just shelter above my head This i lie in is just a bed With no love, no passion to fill it up No sweet whispers or tender touch I feel divided in two Both sides alone pitted against each other In one flesh Seeking love from another Flesh that burns Flesh that yearns Flesh that bleeds Flesh that needs I am human ya know I have these scars that don't show But, inside of me Is a woman longing to be free She is locked inside a cage hands and feet bound in chains Only you hold the key have you Have you heard the words i have spoken to you Have you felt how deep they run Have you seen me somewhere in your mind Have you stopped to think about me You can see that i am no beauty But i am pretty all the same if you heard me laugh if you saw me cry You would see what i mean do you feel me there with you Have you seen what i do when no one is looking Do you understand what i given to you Have you any idea what you have given to me Have you ever wanted to just give up the fight Stop the charade you live I see through you I know just what to do I give myself to you Don't break me I am fragile Like a china doll My skin is thin Like porcelain I bruise easily But i am a good woman My heart is faithful and true It beats for you alone once i give it to you love/like I love all your ridiculous ways I like all the words that you say When you whisper in my ear Trying to calm my fears And i don't know why but i see you in my dreams at night And i don't know how to feel like this, i try to resist You I like how you are sweet and salty I like the way you move when you are nervous I like the way you smile at me and You make me laugh and you make me smile an you make me feel alive And i see so much in you that others cant see and that's pretty to me I love the way you shine I love the way you feel like your all mine I ache when you cry and i want to take you in my arms and hold you and show you all my charms And i want to wipe your tears away take away your tears and tell you its all ok I want to be for you what you have been for me Just let me be Small This town is so small And these people have small minds ad i am so big big thoughts, big heart, big soul i want to break out Be free from this place I have never belonged here I see nothing familiar within any face I belong somewhere else I belong to something bigger than me I have some dreams To write, to love, to be free I am dying here Choking on all the nothingness All the shallowness Of them all of this city of these people Its always been the same here All my years here I never fit in What am i doing here I don't belong here Sweet Summer Rain I stood in the rain today Alone Just to feel the way the water felt on my skin pours across my breast drenching me I stared at the sky Let the water roll down Sweet summer rain It was quiet no other sounds But the drops hitting the leaves dripping wet My hair ruined My shirt clings to my back Like desperation The rain was so beautiful Like Gods tears raining down on me Washing away the things that hurt me Washing away my shame and tragedy Standing in the rain I feel its emotion In motion dripping down over me Next page Home last updated: 12/23/2006